I'm a Tri-Sexual!!!

NEW BOY not feeling it

2008-05-31T16:56:00.000-07:00

I've been the one to call the new guy the last few times. So I'm not calling, he's going to have to call me. he's like every other guy wants to get laid. my friends say if i'm not into it then to not pursue it and I shouldn't feel like I'm greatful he's intrested. URGH MEN!!!
maybe I should go gay. I like girls well enough but I don't think I'm a lesbian.

i miss DDR

2008-05-28T17:43:00.000-07:00

I still miss him. He had the most wonderful hug and lips that demanded to be sucked on. damn him!! I just read all the posts I wrote to/about him.

Sexual Healing...

2008-05-28T17:16:00.001-07:00

I've been craving anal sex again! Dammit I hate that feeling.....thinking about someone ramming my ass like they own it. I have such a dirty mind. Damn this PMS!!!

Since I decided to go Vanilla i really hope this new guy is as kinky as he claims. I'm trying to take it slow but I always rush ahead. He sent a text about waking me up by sucking on my tits. I got upset not because of what he said but I ran before I walked. When I got it I was totally wet....I hope sex is good between us....if we even get that far. I'm a spaz.

The 2 J's....I havent talked to them in a while. I deleted Jeremy's number and rarely respond to any of his texts. And Jason's phone is off so I no longer text him.

A new me!

2008-05-26T12:13:00.000-07:00

I decided to begood and date like a normal girl. yes i still crave what DDR promised but I know thats not reality. After mending my slutty heart I decided to use and internet site and so far I met a really nice guy.

How I crave to just fuck him and let him have his way with me. But I'm going to resist and actually date him awhile before sex. I think its going to kill me before it kills him. He thinks he's more sexual than i am.....oh he has no idea I like to fuck like there's no tomorrow.

I think when he says he likes me it makes me wet an my nipples hard. He says if I need him to be kinky to satisfy me he will.

plus I'm horny today. I'm not wearing a bra so I'm trying to refrain from touching my tits and masturbating....well I actually plan to masturbate today. I was watching some soft porn...YUMMY!!! I just know fucking myself makes me hornier and I don't want to jump the new guy before we figure out what we are.

Well that left a mark....

2008-02-01T18:01:00.000-08:00

I knew the moment he said 'Can we call it a night?' I wouldnt hear from him again. I'm not even going to try to analyze what went wrong, or dwell on not measuring up. I think I'm just done with bdsm, this was painful.
He can continue his search and find the perfect sub. I'm just going to find a way to be happy.

Thursday....DDR

2008-01-23T18:03:00.000-08:00

So we're on for Thursday night. I'm so fucking excited but nervous too. I've had this on and off search for a few years now and to meet someone who makes me wet with just one phone call is....exhilarating.
The last personb I met....deep down I knew I shouldnt have met him....I didn't go with my instincts and it scared the shit out of me. I never want that kind of fear and humilation again. The good thing is nothing bad happened but I hate thinking about that time. I was in a bad place.....maybe that's more the problem....not a happy time in my world.
I'm glad I don't have that scared feeling with DDR....well scared but in a differnt way (more will he like me way and vice versa) I guess that's why the email he sent last night seem to comfort me, knowing he has my best interest at heart and plus we're both nervous as hell. FUCK!! LOL
I think people caught me talking to myself because I've practiced conversations and I know it sounds crazy but with me being shy I do this. And guess what happens when I get there? Not a damn thing because all my funny & witty comments go out the door. I'm just your basic shy dork who wants to be dominated.
I wanted to go get a cute nighty but it was raining too hard.
Until tomorrow night.....

Cancer - Craves Sex Alot

2008-01-22T18:11:00.000-08:00

I found this on bondage.com
I crave sex alot....no shit!!!
LOL

DDR....What's your b-day?

GEMINI - HARD LOVER
5/21 - 6/21

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Good personalities. Loves relationships.
Addictive. Loud. 16 years of bad luck if you do not repost

CANCER - CRAVES SEX A LOT
6/22 - 7/22

Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Normally not a fighter, but will if neccessary. Someone loves them right now. 2 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

LIBRA - THE PIMP
9/23 - 10/22

Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good sense of humor! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

AQUARIUS - THE ONE YOU CANT TOUCH
1/20 - 2/18

Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Attractive. Loud. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

PISCES - THE SEX ADDICT
2/19 - 3/20

EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. BEST kisser. Always get what they want. Very Attractive. Easy going. RARE find. GOOD when found. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. NOT one to mess with! 4 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

LEO - THE MANIAC
7/23 - 8/22

Very talkative. Nice to everyone they meet. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and SEXY. Have own unique appeal. Irresistible. Most caring person you'll ever meet! However, not the kind of person you wanna mess with... you might end up crying... 10 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

ARIES - THE PLAYER
3/21 - 4/19

Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very good in bed. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

SAGITTARIUS - THE BEST SEXUAL PARTNER
11/22 - 12/21

Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it. Cool. Loves to own Geminis in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

TAURUS - THE BAD BOY OR GIRL
4/20 - 5/20

Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Not a fighter, but will knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

CAPRICORN - THE SEXY ONE
12/22 - 1/19

Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Sweet. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. Loves to smile. Beautiful laugh. Patient. Cautious. Bit of naughty. The one and only. 7 Years of bad luck if you do not repost.

SCORPIO - THE VIRGIN
10/23 - 11/21

Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. ONE OF A KIND. Gorgeous Smile. Not one to mess with. The best sexual partners in the zodiac. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

VIRGO - THE ONE
8/23 - 9/22

Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with - you might end up crying!

Consumption

2008-01-17T04:14:00.000-08:00

He told me he wanted to consume my thoughts, I assumed me thinking about him too much I was already consumed. I was tossing and turning all night and I thought about him and it wasn't until around 2 am the word CONSUMPTION came to my mind. It made sense, the intense feelings... I wanted to be home but I had so much to do today and having the place to myself for an hour was not an option.

During the night I touched my pussy but I didn't masturbate. I played with my tits but i didn't go to the point of making myself wet. The ache woke me up several times and knew I was being consumed and not matter how many times I tell myself its too soon.

No matter what I'm doing he invades my thoughts.....

Sleepy girl thoughts

2008-01-15T22:23:00.000-08:00

He's sick and then he's super busy with work.

I miss his voice.

Lack of sleep has made me weepy. Hopefully sleep will happen tonight.

I wrote another blog but its....too emotional. Maybe once I feel more secure I can post it.

I'm excited about traveling but very dissappointed the day he set to meet I would just arriving back into town.

Maybe its good thing we dont meet this week because the new medication has made me break out. YUCK!!

Consumption.

Today's Thoughts

2008-01-10T18:00:00.000-08:00

It was so hard to concentrate at work today...I was thinking about his last email and how I came last night. One of his comments said he wanted to own my orgasm in that just makes me wet just thinking about it.

I can see us on a sofa I'm laying across with my legs spread just wearing my thong and bra. He's on the other end of the sofa and has a view of my pussy not touching me just watching. As He watches me as I get wetter and wetter slipping 2-3 fingers. I'm playing withmy clit and I feel my orgasm coming and thats when he reaches over and adds his finger into my dripping pussy. This takes me over and i squirt all over the sofa and out hands.

The only problem with an orgasm like that....I need towels all over the place. :-)
Today at the oddest moments I just thought about him. Not just sexually but just knowing he's going to hug me. I know its weird but sometimes I just want to be hugs and feel cherished.

I'm such a brat.

This doesn't make sense just random thoughts in my head

2008-01-08T18:44:00.000-08:00

In normal situations a girl can talk to her friends about her new adventures. With this upcoming adventure I'm pretty much stuck in my own head. I try not to glamourize it nor do I want to treat it this like crap.

*What if it doesnt work out?

*What if I'm putting too much hope into one basket?

I hate being nervous.

*Will he find pleasure in me?

Sadly I'm on my cycle so i can't masturbate. I can't cum. Last night I just held my breast, thinking about him....pretending they were his hands.
I constantly wondred how his cock would be in my mouth....i wondered how he'd taste when he cums....I wondered how his lips would feel against mines...I wondered how his arms would feel around me.....

I'm so horrible with communication. i don't want to come off super needy but nor do i want to be this cold person. I dont know what to say or do...All I know is I have this need to please and its driving me insane.

i should go read.

Rain makes me horny

2008-01-04T17:09:00.000-08:00

Something about the rain makes me want to cum. Maybe its the cold air or the fact my nipples try to grow an extra size. Plus I have PMS and that's making me even hornier than usual. An ex use to refer it to my peaking stage, I was...animalistic....yes I'm always horny but during this time my orgasms are more powerful.

During my way home I got completely soaked....not in my panties but from the rain. So in the foyer I took off my jeans and all thats left is my shirt, scarf, and socks. I was thinking about playing before everyone arrived but I would want to cum too many times and know they'll hear me. hehehe

The other night after hanging out with friends I realized I was in the car alone. I unzipped my jacket, pulled down my bra and just drove with my tits exposed. Its was dark so no one could tell but I felt naughty. With the cold air hitting the tits I was wet instantly, I wanted to play with my pussy but it was fun to be soaked by the time I got home.

hmmmmm

2008: Lingerie baby!

2008-01-03T17:40:00.000-08:00

For the last few days I've been crazy busy at work so blogging has been impossible but he was never too far from my thoughts. And right now I'm dealing with bouts of insomia so I'm either very horny or too tired to play the way i crave so I with those odd feelings I ended 2007 in my usual quiet way drinking at home and waiting for midnight and in bed 20 minutes later.
On NYE my sheer stockings arrived, they fit WAY better than the other stockings but the only draw back they're off black and not black/black. But they seem to stay up a little better. I think that's a great way to kick off 2008. I also bought some cute boy shorts....this is what i figured about boy-shorts for BBW's....they're just granny panties and I HATE granny panties!!!
I love lingerie. I love find a bra that makes my tits look larger, i like thongs or g-strings for tbe simple fact they make me feel sexy. When I was searching for the stockings I saw so many cute things and I got that girlie-sexy feeling again.

My mind

2007-12-26T07:25:00.000-08:00

It took me a while to fall asleep this morning, I played with my nipples wish it was him playing with them. Then I woke up on Christmas morning aching for his touch, my pussy vibrating with need. But still I didnt touch my self....I was too afraid of this need. I noticed last night I repeated the words he asked me to and I wasnt even masturbating even when I wanted to touch myself.
I feel like I'm being devoured menatally but not in a scary way, just the anticipation has me waking up with wet panties, craving his cock. This ache is truly foreign for me.

Night 3

2007-12-22T21:47:00.000-08:00

Dear Daddy,
Thank you for allowing me to cum!! It was so hard not to cum within the first 3 minutes, I lasted about 12 and that was simply insane. It was hard to repeat the words you told me to not because I didnt want to , it was because I could see myself sucking your cock.

The first time I came I wanted to scream because I finally was able to release but also out of frustration you were not there. Once my heart stopped racing, I'd plan to turn off the vibrator when I brushed against my sensitive lips. I knew I had to give in and as I was coming I repeated the words, i wanted to shout out the words but i dont think my neighbors and roommated wanted to be awaken at 12:45 am. My body felt like it was floating and even though I could have gone a 3rd round I didnt want to be greedy.

My body isn't holding as much tension but I'm not completely relaxed, because I crave your cock. Sometimes masturbating isnt like the real thing, its one of the reasons why I dont always do it but I indulge myself time to time.

Okay I will say good night and will think of you.

Always,
Your Angel

Night 2

2007-12-22T01:09:00.001-08:00

Dear Daddy Dom,
I didn't think I would be able to complete the task tonight because I wasn't feeling too hot earlier. But as I was laying in my bed unable to sleep I decided to re-read your emails and was instantly ready.

I put on the stockings again but instead of sitting in the chair I laid in my bed. I started pleasuring myself, first with fingers then when I knew I needed more I took out my favorite purple vibrator. When I knew a release was near I did as you requested and I did not come. This made the usual after glow very difficult my body pulsating to release and I deny it. Tonight I craved you more than usual and I missed you more than I thought was possible. I could almost feel you fucking my body, using what you needed, while giving me what I need also.

This is new territory for me and my emotions were all over the place. I laid in my bed trying to sort these feelings...Even when I wanted to take that vibrator and make myself squirt all over my vibrator I didnt. As the wetness seem to run everywhere I repeated the words you told me to recite. I was going to wait till later to write this blog but I wanted the fresh feelings so you could understand or hear what I'm experiencing.

I miss you.
Until tomorrow evening.

Always,
Your Angel

Night 1

2007-12-21T00:28:00.000-08:00

Dear Daddy Dom,

Tonight I wore my stocking, I look hideous I might add but I wore them like a good girl and I sat in a chair as you requested. I said the words you told me recite over and over. I wanted to cum but I know I was not allowed.
I envisioned your cock in my mouth and I was bringing you pleasure. I thought about the cum the would flow and fill my mouth and would be forced to swallow. I thought of that over and over. I can not wait till you use me as you see fit.

I'm sure with the build up Night 3 will be insane.

Always,

Your Angel

Found Him....or did he find me?

2007-12-20T21:17:00.000-08:00

I rejoined Collarme.com on a whim, I was bored and figured what did I have to lose. I originally was looking for a Domme but that pool was very limited. I did start communicating with one couple but something about the guy made me take a step back. Just as I was about to give up when R sent a message. I did let him know I was leaving soon, so we exchanged numbers. The first 2 calls we both were pretty busy and couldnt just sit down and talk.
I think it was almost a week later I decided to give him a call and that was the call that did me in. He was just what I was looking for....not too strict where I was so scared I wanted to run, just caring with the guidance and firmness I desired and not so lenient I could walk over him. He's sweet yet firm. We exchanged our email addresses and the letters just started.
And with each email it makes me want to serve him and worship his cock. I re-read his letters, when I masturbate its while I think of him, when i wake up to give my tits their morning rub I think of him. It scares me but excites me at the same time.
How did this man go from simply a guy I met online to someone I crave? I've never missed anyone like this, I just hope I make him happy and serve him well.

What kind of sub do I want to be?

2007-04-29T03:01:00.000-07:00

What kind of sub do you want to be?

This question has been asked so many times and as usual the answer evades me. I know I want to please, I know I want to serve, I definately know I want to be used. But to what exstent.
Sexually i know I want to try to new things find my new boundaries. But menatally....that's a whole new story. I'm scared I'm using this to hide some weird "no-one-loves-me-mental-thing". I want to be able to express my sexual side without feeling like a freak. I want to experience the pleasure and the pain. I want to me completing simple (or complex) tasks makes someone happy. Knowing they're taking please by using my holes makes me excited....and scared.
So again I ask myself what kind of sub I want to be?

I need more fucking PORN!!!

2007-04-10T18:57:00.000-07:00

Is it because I'm not sexually active I'm craving porn, tits, and cock? I DP and lesbian porn. Not that dressed up shit I like it down and dirty. You would think with all these desires i would be out there fucking like crazy...that was the old Angel...I would tell a guy I just want sex, go to a motel and fuck till weak in the knees. And never date.
What has happen to me?!?! What happened to that girl? Now I crave cooking together, reading in the park with a boy, just holding hands, kissing just because we can, oh hell I'm going to say it....justing being with a boy who cared about me!
YIKES!!!
Maybe I need more masturbation?

Her...

2007-04-06T16:46:00.000-07:00

For the first time in my life i really care about a woman. I know if I get to know her any further I will be in love. She's so pretty and has the softest lips. I could worship her body for days. I was with her and her boyfriend and I just wasn't cumming....I would be on the edge and nothing. But as soon as I tasted her I was ready. I still didn't come like i wanted but to hear her moans made my lack of a real orgasm OK. The guy is cool and I love out conversations, he's great in bed but those moments I live for are with her. When she sucks on my tits I get this high feel, and i can feel my self getting wet, and when her mouth is on my pussy I nearly explode.
I crave her more than any woman I've ever encountered. I dream about her kisses, I dream about having sex with her, so many nights I've awakened due to dreaming about her and have to pleasure myself.

Passing Naughty notes.....

2006-10-20T18:10:00.000-07:00

I came AGAIN!!!
WHO HOO!!!
This is fucking great. its not as good as being fucked but at least i'm not as tense! So I emailed my friend from myspace because I couldnt use their message system. and we talked about what we like about sex and as the day progress the messages got really hot. I had to run to the bathroom several times to clean myself up.
This was my favorite message I sent to him (I know I'm so about ME!!!)

Just think if I
was under the desk helping you with your release. I love to lick the tip
of a cock, like a lollipop. As my mouth takes in more your cock my
tongue is swirling around. A little precum in my mouth. You grab my tits
squeeze them. The
more you play with my tits the wetter I become.
Wow I'm so fucking
horny now. My pussy is throbbing!
*grin*
We're both in trouble.

I'm craving cock like crazy sense the 'potential' Dom is no where to be found. I took my profile down at collarme.com and i dont go to bondage too often. I dont want fuck buddies because I dont want to deal with STD's, esp. since i dont have insurance just yet.

but back to my friend....he has great ideas that had my pussy throbbibg for hours. Thank goodness for the blackberry so i could take it with me at lunch and everytime I took a sip from my diet coke I thought about sucking cock.

After this message on the way home I pulled up my skirt to play witn my pussy.

I think I found your sex blog. Was I the myspace friend that writes
sex blogs that you mentioned?

I love that picture on that profile. Damn that one is hot. Can
imagine burying my face in there and sliding my cock in between them. Am
needing to cum pretty badly myself right now. Imagine you are on the road
and heading home. Hope you don't mind that I will be stroking this
hard cock and wishing it was between your luscious lips then sliding into
your tight wet pussy and pounding away until I cum and cum and cum
inside of you.

mmmmm yes the precum is dripping already at the thought.

kisses

Honestly it makes me blush to know a man is jerking off to my lips or tits. I had a friend who took some pics of me and he said he used those to masturbate with. I was so honored.

So I was so horny I just had to masturbate. The vibrator wasnt working, fucking my ass wasnt working, just as I was about to give up I just started playing with my clit and I SQUIRTED!!! Fuck yeah!!!

This is definately a good FRIDAY!!!

I CAME!!!

2006-10-16T23:21:00.000-07:00

Oh after weeks of NO ORGASM I finally came yesterday! I just read this incredible blog about a 4 some (3 guys and a girl) and it was just so HOT, then I have a myspace buddy who likes to write sexblogs and i gave him an idea and that just made me so wet i couldnt take it anymore. I had the place to my self and I wasnt going to meet up with a potential Dom like I orginally planned.
I get my trusty vibrator out and placed it on my clit, then I got the bigger vibrator to fuck my pussy. while I i knew i was barely on the edge i needed my ass to be violated. Its been a while since I use the anal dildo. I lubed my ass and the dildo and gently put it in my ass. it hurt like hell but felt so good at the same time. this make me so wet i nearly squirted. I knew an orgasm was going to finally bubble over. so a vibrator in my ass and my trusty vibrator on the clit i exploded. it wasnt the greatest orgasm but it was still damn good.
I got up and took a shower.
I can't wait to get fucked!!! Not only do I need it in my pussy but I seriously need it in my ass.
damn I think I made myself wet again.

A fun memory

2006-10-13T23:23:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite moments is when my ex Rob and i broke into a gutted out building he was working on. He had me strip to my bra & underwear. He bent me over a work bench and fucked me from behind, while he grabbed my tits. After he had enough he tied me to a metal pole in the middle of the room and blind folded me.
He had a crop and spanked my boobs and fingered me, used a wand on my clit and kept it there till I came (several times). He then untied me, pushed me to the floor, he fucked my mouth, then fucked my pussy. He wasnt gentle, very rough-just the way I like it.
He started fucking my mouth again, he knew I hate cum so he wanted to cum in my mouth but he ended up cumming more on my face and mouth.
Finally i get cleaned up, put on my clothes and he locked up the building.
We went back to his apartment to fuck some more.

Lovingly fucked

2006-09-30T00:20:00.000-07:00

I'm truly a romantic at heart.
I want the flowers and kisses. I want to hold hands with someone, I want to have Sunday brunch or Friday night dinners.
I want the whole 9 yards.
But I'm rarely in a REAL relationship. I'm always the fuck buddy or the one night stand person. I LOVE sex and all that goes with it but I would like it with someone i'm really into.
Like my bondage phase. I want the person who's my Dom to be my potential husband. I guess that's my ultimate fantasy. To wear a collar and submit to the man I marry. damn that makes me wet just thinking about it.
But I know it won't happen.

just a feeling

2006-09-27T19:29:00.000-07:00

I think the lack of sex is making me so horny I've forget my name.
I'm constantly thinking about sucking cock until it I can taste the cum in my mouth. I 'm constantly thinking about getting fucked in the ass but i know its icky. Its not just one man, its a woman or several guys at one time but I know that would never happen. I can see a woman with a strap on fucking me till I shiver.
I see it all but nothing is happening.
URGH!!
I'm so fucking horny!!

Play with me?

2006-09-25T18:10:00.000-07:00

This week I might meet someone from collarme.com.
I'm excited and scared. I just hope he's std free.
He's way more adventureous than I am but i know I need to be fucked. I could call Jase or Vanessa but they're too busy for our usual 3some.
I love being with Vanessa she's just so fucking amazing and responsive. Damn I need stop thinking about her, makes me wet.

When it comes to what I want sexually I suffer from ADD. One minute I just want to be with a woman, then I want a 3 some (want my cake and eat it too), then i want a Dom to just fuck me silly.

9.12.06

2006-09-13T18:09:00.000-07:00

Last night I masturbated and I thought of a woman in her 40's, she has red hair, nice body, like she goes to the gym daily, great tits and of course shaved. I thought about arriving to her house with just a coat on with nothing on underneath. I would drop to my knees and eat her till she came all over my face.

Once we were done she would take me to her bedroom and put on her strap on and fuck me till I was wimpering.

Dreams about Paris Hilton?

2006-09-13T17:33:00.000-07:00

So the woman I was talking to wasnt a woman....at least I don't think so. She hit me up on one of my other SN's with the same lines. I know think its a man and she was going crazy for me to get a cam. Little does she knows I already have one.
oh well.

Had a weird dream the other day, I had a dream I had a 3 some with Paris Hilton, it took place at a club, I guess people could see it but I couldnt see the people. But she wasnt sickly looking, she looked classy yes sexy and that turns me on more than anything, and voice was normal. But anyway, we shared a cock of some random guy, they were both aggressive and dominating (which I LOVE) and she made me eat her pussy (it was shaved, i love a shaved pussy) and swallow his cum. i woke up all nice and wet.

That was the only time I was attracted to Paris Hilton.

What would it be like to date a woman? I've had sex dozens of times but a REAL relationship is risky. Hell I can even phantom a real relationship with a man let alone a woman.

I'm thinking of giving up BDSM!!

2006-09-09T01:12:00.000-07:00

For the last few years I've been tryingto break into BDSM and so far I get fakes or if i find a potential he freaks me out too much I give up.
Recently I found this GREAT profile on Collarme.com and contact the guy and he seems like someone I would like to meet (he lives DOWN the street from me). He sends a real email on Saturday, and its not your typical email it was an email that made you think. So around 4 am Sunday morning i FINISH the email. I use word so i could save it through out the day and then I really put feeling into this email, I'm bearing my sole and 5 days later....nothing.
I did learn a lesson from this....never bare my soul and never believe what a man tells me.

Being me

2006-09-02T01:18:00.000-07:00

My fetish for women is becoming stronger. I think it started with my crush with Vanessa, whenever I kissed her or made love to her I craved her more and more. I had to stop myself from texting her or calling because I knew I was caring too much.

I know I could never have a girlfriend. My family simply wouldn't understand.

Yes I've had sex with women but I usually faked enjoying going down till Vanessa, she just made me crave it more. Her kisses were hot and passionate. Her breast just right. I never told her when she was around me I became this submissive thing. I wish she was into BDSM I would love to be her slave.

Even thought I haven't been with her all summer I still crave her or I look at a woman and the desires start again. A woman recently im'd me and wanted to chat. She's really cute and I want to date her. I told her I've never had a girlfriend but it made me think....Maybe the reason I haven't dated a man in a while is because I'm so curious about my bi-side.

I already know about the sexual part. I'm talking about DATING!! But how would I do it and no one can find out? And its not fair to the woman in question.

So many questions!!