Being me

My fetish for women is becoming stronger. I think it started with my crush with Vanessa, whenever I kissed her or made love to her I craved her more and more. I had to stop myself from texting her or calling because I knew I was caring too much.

I know I could never have a girlfriend. My family simply wouldn't understand.

Yes I've had sex with women but I usually faked enjoying going down till Vanessa, she just made me crave it more. Her kisses were hot and passionate. Her breast just right. I never told her when she was around me I became this submissive thing. I wish she was into BDSM I would love to be her slave.

Even thought I haven't been with her all summer I still crave her or I look at a woman and the desires start again. A woman recently im'd me and wanted to chat. She's really cute and I want to date her. I told her I've never had a girlfriend but it made me think....Maybe the reason I haven't dated a man in a while is because I'm so curious about my bi-side.

I already know about the sexual part. I'm talking about DATING!! But how would I do it and no one can find out? And its not fair to the woman in question.

So many questions!!