Lovingly fucked

I'm truly a romantic at heart.
I want the flowers and kisses. I want to hold hands with someone, I want to have Sunday brunch or Friday night dinners.
I want the whole 9 yards.
But I'm rarely in a REAL relationship. I'm always the fuck buddy or the one night stand person. I LOVE sex and all that goes with it but I would like it with someone i'm really into.
Like my bondage phase. I want the person who's my Dom to be my potential husband. I guess that's my ultimate fantasy. To wear a collar and submit to the man I marry. damn that makes me wet just thinking about it.
But I know it won't happen.