Thursday....DDR

So we're on for Thursday night. I'm so fucking excited but nervous too. I've had this on and off search for a few years now and to meet someone who makes me wet with just one phone call is....exhilarating.
The last personb I met....deep down I knew I shouldnt have met him....I didn't go with my instincts and it scared the shit out of me. I never want that kind of fear and humilation again. The good thing is nothing bad happened but I hate thinking about that time. I was in a bad place.....maybe that's more the problem....not a happy time in my world.
I'm glad I don't have that scared feeling with DDR....well scared but in a differnt way (more will he like me way and vice versa) I guess that's why the email he sent last night seem to comfort me, knowing he has my best interest at heart and plus we're both nervous as hell. FUCK!! LOL
I think people caught me talking to myself because I've practiced conversations and I know it sounds crazy but with me being shy I do this. And guess what happens when I get there? Not a damn thing because all my funny & witty comments go out the door. I'm just your basic shy dork who wants to be dominated.
I wanted to go get a cute nighty but it was raining too hard.
Until tomorrow night.....