NEW BOY not feeling it

I've been the one to call the new guy the last few times. So I'm not calling, he's going to have to call me. he's like every other guy wants to get laid. my friends say if i'm not into it then to not pursue it and I shouldn't feel like I'm greatful he's intrested. URGH MEN!!!
maybe I should go gay. I like girls well enough but I don't think I'm a lesbian.

i miss DDR

I still miss him. He had the most wonderful hug and lips that demanded to be sucked on. damn him!! I just read all the posts I wrote to/about him.

Sexual Healing...

I've been craving anal sex again! Dammit I hate that feeling.....thinking about someone ramming my ass like they own it. I have such a dirty mind. Damn this PMS!!!

Since I decided to go Vanilla i really hope this new guy is as kinky as he claims. I'm trying to take it slow but I always rush ahead. He sent a text about waking me up by sucking on my tits. I got upset not because of what he said but I ran before I walked. When I got it I was totally wet....I hope sex is good between us....if we even get that far. I'm a spaz.

The 2 J's....I havent talked to them in a while. I deleted Jeremy's number and rarely respond to any of his texts. And Jason's phone is off so I no longer text him.

A new me!

I decided to begood and date like a normal girl. yes i still crave what DDR promised but I know thats not reality. After mending my slutty heart I decided to use and internet site and so far I met a really nice guy.

How I crave to just fuck him and let him have his way with me. But I'm going to resist and actually date him awhile before sex. I think its going to kill me before it kills him. He thinks he's more sexual than i am.....oh he has no idea I like to fuck like there's no tomorrow.

I think when he says he likes me it makes me wet an my nipples hard. He says if I need him to be kinky to satisfy me he will.

plus I'm horny today. I'm not wearing a bra so I'm trying to refrain from touching my tits and masturbating....well I actually plan to masturbate today. I was watching some soft porn...YUMMY!!! I just know fucking myself makes me hornier and I don't want to jump the new guy before we figure out what we are.