My mind

It took me a while to fall asleep this morning, I played with my nipples wish it was him playing with them. Then I woke up on Christmas morning aching for his touch, my pussy vibrating with need. But still I didnt touch my self....I was too afraid of this need. I noticed last night I repeated the words he asked me to and I wasnt even masturbating even when I wanted to touch myself.
I feel like I'm being devoured menatally but not in a scary way, just the anticipation has me waking up with wet panties, craving his cock. This ache is truly foreign for me.

Night 3

Dear Daddy,
Thank you for allowing me to cum!! It was so hard not to cum within the first 3 minutes, I lasted about 12 and that was simply insane. It was hard to repeat the words you told me to not because I didnt want to , it was because I could see myself sucking your cock.

The first time I came I wanted to scream because I finally was able to release but also out of frustration you were not there. Once my heart stopped racing, I'd plan to turn off the vibrator when I brushed against my sensitive lips. I knew I had to give in and as I was coming I repeated the words, i wanted to shout out the words but i dont think my neighbors and roommated wanted to be awaken at 12:45 am. My body felt like it was floating and even though I could have gone a 3rd round I didnt want to be greedy.

My body isn't holding as much tension but I'm not completely relaxed, because I crave your cock. Sometimes masturbating isnt like the real thing, its one of the reasons why I dont always do it but I indulge myself time to time.

Okay I will say good night and will think of you.

Always,
Your Angel

Night 2

Dear Daddy Dom,
I didn't think I would be able to complete the task tonight because I wasn't feeling too hot earlier. But as I was laying in my bed unable to sleep I decided to re-read your emails and was instantly ready.

I put on the stockings again but instead of sitting in the chair I laid in my bed. I started pleasuring myself, first with fingers then when I knew I needed more I took out my favorite purple vibrator. When I knew a release was near I did as you requested and I did not come. This made the usual after glow very difficult my body pulsating to release and I deny it. Tonight I craved you more than usual and I missed you more than I thought was possible. I could almost feel you fucking my body, using what you needed, while giving me what I need also.

This is new territory for me and my emotions were all over the place. I laid in my bed trying to sort these feelings...Even when I wanted to take that vibrator and make myself squirt all over my vibrator I didnt. As the wetness seem to run everywhere I repeated the words you told me to recite. I was going to wait till later to write this blog but I wanted the fresh feelings so you could understand or hear what I'm experiencing.

I miss you.
Until tomorrow evening.

Always,
Your Angel

Night 1

Dear Daddy Dom,

Tonight I wore my stocking, I look hideous I might add but I wore them like a good girl and I sat in a chair as you requested. I said the words you told me recite over and over. I wanted to cum but I know I was not allowed.
I envisioned your cock in my mouth and I was bringing you pleasure. I thought about the cum the would flow and fill my mouth and would be forced to swallow. I thought of that over and over. I can not wait till you use me as you see fit.

I'm sure with the build up Night 3 will be insane.

Always,

Your Angel

Found Him....or did he find me?

I rejoined Collarme.com on a whim, I was bored and figured what did I have to lose. I originally was looking for a Domme but that pool was very limited. I did start communicating with one couple but something about the guy made me take a step back. Just as I was about to give up when R sent a message. I did let him know I was leaving soon, so we exchanged numbers. The first 2 calls we both were pretty busy and couldnt just sit down and talk.
I think it was almost a week later I decided to give him a call and that was the call that did me in. He was just what I was looking for....not too strict where I was so scared I wanted to run, just caring with the guidance and firmness I desired and not so lenient I could walk over him. He's sweet yet firm. We exchanged our email addresses and the letters just started.
And with each email it makes me want to serve him and worship his cock. I re-read his letters, when I masturbate its while I think of him, when i wake up to give my tits their morning rub I think of him. It scares me but excites me at the same time.
How did this man go from simply a guy I met online to someone I crave? I've never missed anyone like this, I just hope I make him happy and serve him well.