Thursday....DDR

So we're on for Thursday night. I'm so fucking excited but nervous too. I've had this on and off search for a few years now and to meet someone who makes me wet with just one phone call is....exhilarating.
The last personb I met....deep down I knew I shouldnt have met him....I didn't go with my instincts and it scared the shit out of me. I never want that kind of fear and humilation again. The good thing is nothing bad happened but I hate thinking about that time. I was in a bad place.....maybe that's more the problem....not a happy time in my world.
I'm glad I don't have that scared feeling with DDR....well scared but in a differnt way (more will he like me way and vice versa) I guess that's why the email he sent last night seem to comfort me, knowing he has my best interest at heart and plus we're both nervous as hell. FUCK!! LOL
I think people caught me talking to myself because I've practiced conversations and I know it sounds crazy but with me being shy I do this. And guess what happens when I get there? Not a damn thing because all my funny & witty comments go out the door. I'm just your basic shy dork who wants to be dominated.
I wanted to go get a cute nighty but it was raining too hard.
Until tomorrow night.....

Cancer - Craves Sex Alot

I found this on bondage.com
I crave sex alot....no shit!!!
LOL

DDR....What's your b-day?

GEMINI - HARD LOVER
5/21 - 6/21

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Good personalities. Loves relationships.
Addictive. Loud. 16 years of bad luck if you do not repost


CANCER - CRAVES SEX A LOT
6/22 - 7/22

Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Normally not a fighter, but will if neccessary. Someone loves them right now. 2 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


LIBRA - THE PIMP
9/23 - 10/22

Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good sense of humor! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


AQUARIUS - THE ONE YOU CANT TOUCH
1/20 - 2/18

Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Attractive. Loud. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


PISCES - THE SEX ADDICT
2/19 - 3/20

EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. BEST kisser. Always get what they want. Very Attractive. Easy going. RARE find. GOOD when found. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. NOT one to mess with! 4 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


LEO - THE MANIAC
7/23 - 8/22

Very talkative. Nice to everyone they meet. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and SEXY. Have own unique appeal. Irresistible. Most caring person you'll ever meet! However, not the kind of person you wanna mess with... you might end up crying... 10 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


ARIES - THE PLAYER
3/21 - 4/19

Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very good in bed. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


SAGITTARIUS - THE BEST SEXUAL PARTNER
11/22 - 12/21

Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it. Cool. Loves to own Geminis in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


TAURUS - THE BAD BOY OR GIRL
4/20 - 5/20

Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Not a fighter, but will knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


CAPRICORN - THE SEXY ONE
12/22 - 1/19

Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Sweet. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. Loves to smile. Beautiful laugh. Patient. Cautious. Bit of naughty. The one and only. 7 Years of bad luck if you do not repost.


SCORPIO - THE VIRGIN
10/23 - 11/21

Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. ONE OF A KIND. Gorgeous Smile. Not one to mess with. The best sexual partners in the zodiac. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


VIRGO - THE ONE
8/23 - 9/22

Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with - you might end up crying!

Consumption

He told me he wanted to consume my thoughts, I assumed me thinking about him too much I was already consumed. I was tossing and turning all night and I thought about him and it wasn't until around 2 am the word CONSUMPTION came to my mind. It made sense, the intense feelings... I wanted to be home but I had so much to do today and having the place to myself for an hour was not an option.

During the night I touched my pussy but I didn't masturbate. I played with my tits but i didn't go to the point of making myself wet. The ache woke me up several times and knew I was being consumed and not matter how many times I tell myself its too soon.


No matter what I'm doing he invades my thoughts.....

Sleepy girl thoughts

He's sick and then he's super busy with work.

I miss his voice.

Lack of sleep has made me weepy. Hopefully sleep will happen tonight.

I wrote another blog but its....too emotional. Maybe once I feel more secure I can post it.

I'm excited about traveling but very dissappointed the day he set to meet I would just arriving back into town.

Maybe its good thing we dont meet this week because the new medication has made me break out. YUCK!!

Consumption.

Today's Thoughts

It was so hard to concentrate at work today...I was thinking about his last email and how I came last night. One of his comments said he wanted to own my orgasm in that just makes me wet just thinking about it.

I can see us on a sofa I'm laying across with my legs spread just wearing my thong and bra. He's on the other end of the sofa and has a view of my pussy not touching me just watching. As He watches me as I get wetter and wetter slipping 2-3 fingers. I'm playing withmy clit and I feel my orgasm coming and thats when he reaches over and adds his finger into my dripping pussy. This takes me over and i squirt all over the sofa and out hands.

The only problem with an orgasm like that....I need towels all over the place. :-)
Today at the oddest moments I just thought about him. Not just sexually but just knowing he's going to hug me. I know its weird but sometimes I just want to be hugs and feel cherished.

I'm such a brat.

This doesn't make sense just random thoughts in my head

In normal situations a girl can talk to her friends about her new adventures. With this upcoming adventure I'm pretty much stuck in my own head. I try not to glamourize it nor do I want to treat it this like crap.

*What if it doesnt work out?

*What if I'm putting too much hope into one basket?

I hate being nervous.

*Will he find pleasure in me?

Sadly I'm on my cycle so i can't masturbate. I can't cum. Last night I just held my breast, thinking about him....pretending they were his hands.
I constantly wondred how his cock would be in my mouth....i wondered how he'd taste when he cums....I wondered how his lips would feel against mines...I wondered how his arms would feel around me.....

I'm so horrible with communication. i don't want to come off super needy but nor do i want to be this cold person. I dont know what to say or do...All I know is I have this need to please and its driving me insane.

i should go read.

Rain makes me horny

Something about the rain makes me want to cum. Maybe its the cold air or the fact my nipples try to grow an extra size. Plus I have PMS and that's making me even hornier than usual. An ex use to refer it to my peaking stage, I was...animalistic....yes I'm always horny but during this time my orgasms are more powerful.

During my way home I got completely soaked....not in my panties but from the rain. So in the foyer I took off my jeans and all thats left is my shirt, scarf, and socks. I was thinking about playing before everyone arrived but I would want to cum too many times and know they'll hear me. hehehe

The other night after hanging out with friends I realized I was in the car alone. I unzipped my jacket, pulled down my bra and just drove with my tits exposed. Its was dark so no one could tell but I felt naughty. With the cold air hitting the tits I was wet instantly, I wanted to play with my pussy but it was fun to be soaked by the time I got home.

hmmmmm

2008: Lingerie baby!

For the last few days I've been crazy busy at work so blogging has been impossible but he was never too far from my thoughts. And right now I'm dealing with bouts of insomia so I'm either very horny or too tired to play the way i crave so I with those odd feelings I ended 2007 in my usual quiet way drinking at home and waiting for midnight and in bed 20 minutes later.
On NYE my sheer stockings arrived, they fit WAY better than the other stockings but the only draw back they're off black and not black/black. But they seem to stay up a little better. I think that's a great way to kick off 2008. I also bought some cute boy shorts....this is what i figured about boy-shorts for BBW's....they're just granny panties and I HATE granny panties!!!
I love lingerie. I love find a bra that makes my tits look larger, i like thongs or g-strings for tbe simple fact they make me feel sexy. When I was searching for the stockings I saw so many cute things and I got that girlie-sexy feeling again.